Been feeling rather gloomy lately, for no apparent reason.
It's always a smiley face whenever I'm out, but deep down inside, I know I'm not happy, but I just don't want to show it out. To me, out with friends should always be happy, therefore I choose to keep whatever inside me and SMILE.

Its not that I don't want to share what I'm thinking, its just that I don't know how to start, and those feelings are really difficult to phrase in words. It's not something that I can speak up just like all the other crap that I always say. I tell myself that I can't break down now when so many things are going on. I got to keep staying strong, and not to let emotions take control me. Anger always takes over me and starts destroying. Sadness refuses to reveals itself and Happiness always shows itself, even to strangers.

My future??? Very Bleak........

I don't even know what is waiting for me, or what I'm going to do.
It's so near yet so far. Less than 1 year and I'm out of Poly, into the real world.
I'm not even sure I'm prepared for it, much less what I'm going to do.
Its now all about me, myself and I, I make decisions for myself.

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