Beautiful Sunset

Just saw results for this semester's modules. Passed by abit, never really do well as i intended my coursework grades to be. Apparently, its my 2nd year in poly, and with my average gpa at 2.88 now and a chance this semester that it will not rise to 3.0, i have given up my chance to go to university.

Seriously, I feel very stuck now, ~~beginning to~~Seriously regret choosing this course, i have never done well in exams since young, so exams won't help me increase my gpa at all, it might even decrease it to below 2.5.

With such a grade, what the hell am i going to do? I've done my best in projects and that's the best grade i can get. Although i talk in class so what, the teachers are just being biased, as if i'm the only one in class who's not being attentive, which apparently result in my participation marks below pathetically low, together with disgusting grade for project, results in such a grade: D/ D+. Like FUCK!!!

It will be impossible for me to raise it to 3.5 with just 2semesters left, its too late. And at year 2 now, and a year to graduation, seriously, what the hell am i going to do? Time passes so fast that i don't even have time to react. University won't accept me with such results, proceed to working world? Work as what? Waiter for hotels? Ticketing Officer for travel agencies? I don't want to be stuck at those jobs for life.

I feel very "whatamigoingtodoformyfuture" kinda mood now. Moodless, ~~can't carry on~~ Have not even started studying for my exams, with such a result, my aim now is just to pass the exam, since it will not matter as my gpa won't increase because of it since i'm a lousy person when it comes to exams.

FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT!!! WHY MUST I GROW OLD??? THESE KINDA THINGS AFFECT ME TOO MUCH NOW!!! FUCK MY LIFE!!!!

Labels: Emo